Unique Is How

Unique is how
When they belittle you
You are their best friend

True love ❤
Is when they hate you
You love them

But one day
In the empty forest
You heard a twig snap

And at once
The entire forest was
Ripped into the sky

The stars of hate
Burned the roots
Of your creativity

Imagine how
The moon cried
As the rain turned to sorrow 💔

Mud filling the cracks
In natures heart ❤
Only broken for another

Where do we start
The beginning we know
Middle ground has grown

When does it end
Each door has four locks
Windows are bars

Loud sounds cause fear
Can’t let someone near
Lend me your ear

Nobody listening
Everybody talking
Scrambled eggs and brain

The ants devour picnic
Bees stealing honey
Thief offers money

And you take a breath
Feeling your breast
Heart still beating

You live
Life is better
Blogging together


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Our Tesseract

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Tesseract

A loving and meaningful relationship requires we look inside the box just as much as looking within it. When looking inside the box, we see a Tesseract. In this fashion, one can obtain pictures that no longer reflect the spatial relationships within the Tesseract. Moreover, a couple discovers truth is seen outside the box too. A meaningful relationship has many sides, many boxes.  Relationships require understanding. In this understanding each can see the multifaceted relationship between the two.


 

The universe is ever moving, and you cannot plan the future from past experience.

 

 

Keys to Happy

Do not do anything in the daytime that will keep you awake at night.

(It has everything to do with honesty and doing what is right in the relationship)

A Best Friend

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I would rather have you as my best friend for eternity than to have more and lose you forever.

The Four Strongest Forces In The Universe

Rotating wildly swinging outwardly, I am what’s a black hole. (10w)

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Artist’s impression of a stellar-mass black hole.

Photo Credit: European Space Agency, NASA and Felix Mirabel (the French Atomic Energy Commission & the Institute for Astronomy and Space Physics/Conicet of Argentina)


 

Gravity is what we think is the strongest force in the universe. We feel it everyday. It is what makes things fall down. It keeps us grounded on earth. We see gravity in the existence of black holes. There is one in our own galaxy. It pulls things into it with unmeasurable force. Even if we were to send a probe into a black hole we never would get any data back from it. Not even radio waves can escape its pull. Gravity has the second longest range in the universe. There is no escaping the forces of gravity in a black hole, unless you are centrifical force. Nothing can escape a black hole, not even light. But gravity is not the strongest force in the universe. Gravity is only the forth strongest. The reason why gravity in a black hole is so very strong is its size.

 
The strongest force in the universe, that we know of, is Strong Nuclear. We can assign the number 100 to it as comparison to the other three. This acts in an interaction between the nucleons and it is responsible for keeping the nucleus together. This interaction is mediated by so called gluons. Particles in this atomic nucleus are protons and neutrons. They are made up of quarks. However, this interaction is very short ranged because it operates inside of the atoms. It could be thought of as a closeness, like a couple. This is the reason I am in search of my quark. Because I am sure as long as we remain close we can never be broken apart. A strong nuclear bond in a relationship is why couples remain together for life. But even Strong Nuclear Force is ripped apart in a black hole.

 
The second strongest force in the universe is Electromagnetic. We can assign the number 1 to it in comparison to the other three. Because it is 100 times weaker than Strong Nuclear Force. Even a small magnet can overcome the gigantic gravitational force of the earth. Electromagnetic force is something that touches our lives in big ways everyday. Photons are seen with our eye as light. That cell phone, electricity, computers and lightning are only a few of electromagnetic forces. It has the longest range of the four strongest forces in the universe. Radio waves are being sent to and from probes millions of miles away from earth. Radio waves are electromagnetic. The screen you are reading this post on is also the same force. We often refer to the bond between a couple as magnetic. And opposites attract. It is this flow of positive and negative that creates the balance of electromagnetic force. But even if we were to take all the magnetic force in the entire universe and place it near a black hole it too would be sucked it.

 
The third strongest force in the universe is Weak Nuclear. It is like Strong Nuclear in it has a very short range. It is ten times weaker than Electromagnetic. Weak Nuclear is thought to made of Bosons. In particle physics weak nuclear is a very broad interpretation of all the other forces. The emptiness of space could be weak nuclear force. The Higgs boson is a Weak Nuclear force. Weak Nuclear is all the uncertainty of things we really do not know yet. Kind of like the things that keep a relationship together or maybe tear it apart. A lot of theory going on there.

 

It is interesting to know that we really do not know what gravity is or what makes it work. We just know it makes apples fall from trees. Albert Einstein states that gravity is not a force but as a consequence of the curvature of space-time caused by the uneven distribution of mass and energy. All can agree it is a natural phenomenon. It is thought that every object in the universe has gravity and that all pull on each other. It was once thought that nothing could move faster than the speed of light. Recently we found mass moving in the universe faster than this speed. It was always believed that mass could never obtain this speed. We thought the world was flat at one time too. We also thought the sun revolved around the earth. Once we thought that earth was the only planet in the universe that had life. There are even some people today that think the world revolves around them.

 

Science has an explanation or theory about the four strongest forces in the universe. Even the things that can not be seen or the unknown have some theory. But none even dare or try to explain or have theory on God. Some ignore the very existence of God. Saying if science cannot prove it or it has no mathematical equation it just does not exist. But many have theory about things that may exist in the universe. There are books that were written by people who write that God instructed them to write. Some believe it could be nothing more than hearsay. Others think it was written by someone who ate too many mushrooms or consumed excessive drink. The one written for the people of Israel, know as the Jews is titled The Old Testament. A majority of the people who thought of these theories of the universe also believe in this book. The very theory of Albert Einstein, called The Theory of Relativity that many base their own theories on, has its base on TIME. The first verse of the Old Testament says; In the beginning… this was Gods way of defining time. Without it science would have nothing to base theory on. Time plays a very important roll for human kind.

 

LOVE is rightfully the most powerful force in the universe but the least understood. Some think love comes from the heart. Other think love comes from the brain. While others define it as a feeling. Love has its foundation in every religious writings. In the case of the Old Testament God introduced it to humans, to angels to every being in creation. Even people who deny God, a god, a creator, the spirit or anything except self knows love. Even people who believe they know hate love themselves. Love is the one thing every human being, even animals know. But no one seems to really know what it is, where it comes from or what to do with it. Love is the most written about word on earth. To some it is only a word. Everyone seeks it. Love, in its truest form is pure. Unconditional and without fail. It is never ending. It is the GRAVITY that holds humanity together.

 

The Female Makes All The Rules

I recently read a blog about female narcissist. I wish I could remember who wrote it so I could link and give credit. I never knew a women could be one. I thought that only men were the ones with this disorder. I believe I am a very smart person. Still I have to admit I just never knew a woman could be a narcissist. I have read many blogs, written by women, who write about the narcissist husband or boyfriend. Perhaps this is why I never gave any thought on what defines one. After reading the blog about narcissism females, all the signs, everything they do, I decided to research this further. I was surprised to learn that narcissistic personality disorder is not gender specific. That actually shocked me when I put two and two together to discover I was in a long term relationship with one. First and foremost I do not intend on going into details. I believe a relationship is private between two people, no matter how horrible it was for me.

 

This lead me to remember some things from the past. I recall a friend. My friend was a very attractive woman. We were buddies and knew each other since kindergarten. One day she was telling me about maybe she had an asshole magnet in her pocket. I looked and there was no such device. She went on to say every guy she dated or was interested in turned out to be an asshole. I told her maybe it has a lot to do with where she is finding these men. She went to bars and drank alcohol. This was the source of her dating and I am not saying just because people go to bars and drink makes them bad. I was only telling her maybe to try looking for guys who go to other places may yield a better choice.

 

Seems I too may be looking in the wrong place. I do not go to bars and drinking is a very, very rare thing for me. I looked in my pocket and there is not a device that attracts narcissistic females. Though I think I may have attracted a couple.

 

Back in the collage days, I was one of the lucky few who had a job that paid more then 5 times the minimum wage. I lived in a upper class one bedroom apartment. I attended 3 classes before work, worked 8 hours M-F and sometimes a half day on Saturday. I had enough money to live a  comfortable lifestyle. I even partied a little back then. I had a friend who lived in the same complex. We met one day when she was having some car trouble. We went to the same university so I gave her a ride that day. On the way to school I gave her a key to one of my other cars so she could make it to work that night. I did repair her car that week-end, and we hung out a good bit after that.

 

One day the management company left a letter in all our boxes. They were raising the rent from $95 a month to $125. Now that did not bother me financially, but for a collage girl working a part time job at minimum wage that was tough. That week-end my friend and I were hanging out at the pool, with our apartment manager. He was a pretty cool old guy. She was telling him about how she may have to move because she could not get more hours at work, to pay the rent increase. He started telling her that he did have a two bedroom that was opening at the end of the month. The rent was $145 and if she could find a roommate he would transfer her lease. She asked me, hey what about you, you want to be roommates? Now,  I had already met my lease and was on a month to month bases. I thought about it few seconds, she did keep a clean place, didn’t drink beer and was an accounting major. I could add an additional $300 a year to my savings account, and she was a girl. Sounds good to me. I told her. So next month we were roomies.

 

That was perhaps my first experience at being controlled. Not in a really bad way, but financially. It did not take very long before she said I had too many cars, to much credit debt, too much money in savings and not enough invested in stocks and other risk. Lets not forget my roommate was an accounting major! I learned it was easier to live with her if I just listened. One thing I believe I learned early on, you can never read a woman’s mind. She is always right. And she is ready when she says she is ready. I was into a lot of things. I built race cars and engines. Raced moto-cross and had a sponsorship. Toured in the martial arts circuit,  played tennis and competed in a few world cups. I was an amateur radio operator (HAM) and was in the cutting edge of technology. One day a fellow HAM who worked for IBM gave me a computer. He was telling me this was the state of the art machine. And one day everyone, every business will use computers… they will change the world!

 

Now mind you, I was still waiting for that Dick Tracy watch to come out. At that time PONG was the video game and cell phones where the size of a brick, more of a radio than a phone. What my friend wanted me to do with this computer was to figure out how we could send Morse code by typing it out on the keyboard. We had read about how some HAM’s where experimenting with this. So this is how I got started in computing.

 

One thing about these first computers was it took five 5 1/2 floppy disk to boot them. You turned the machine on, inserted disk one, waited for a while and it said on the black and white screen insert boot disk two. You went through this process until all five disk were loaded and like magic a blinking curser came up on the screen as C:\_  If you wanted to save something you had to insert a blank 5 1/2 disk that held a whopping 1.2MB and save. There was a gigantic 512KB processor, 8MB of memory and no hard disk drive. By todays standards your washer has more computing power. A couple months later I learned I could buy what was known as a HARD DISK DRIVE that plugged into the serial port on the computer. It would allow me to turn on the drive, turn on the computer and it would boot up without using all those floppy disk. It held a tremendous 10 MB ! and cost $1000.
I could afford that. So I bought one.

 

Now roommate liked the computer. She was learning how to write stuff with it. She started taking a COBOL class and was experimenting with some accounting stuff. We halved the bills and each did their part in the apartment. There was no romantic involvement with us, we had a good friendship… until I came home one Saturday with that damn $1000 Hard Drive. She hit the roof! Threw a can of soup at me. Kicked a few things around the apartment called me every foul word I never knew existed in her sweet vocabulary. She was all of five feet six inches and weighed in at most 120 lbs. wet. But in those minutes she was larger then the Hulk. She told me I was to take that thing back and get a refund. There is no way you are going to spend that much money. I looked at my hand… Nope, no wedding ring. Looked at hers, nope, no wedding ring. I told her no way. Its my money I can spend it on whatever I want. Okay she said you will regret that. For the next few months she made good on her word. Silent treatment. Leaving stuff laying all over the place. Ignoring me when I talked with her. Eye rolling, the works.

 

One day my friend came by. He asked me if I would be interested in selling the hard drive. I told him I don’t know, I had all the boot disk on it and a few programs I was working on to get the keyboard to talk with the radio. He said I’ll give you $1,250 for it if you let me have all the data on it too. I could not turn that down, and I could buy an 84MB hard disk drive for that price. Sure, so I sold it to him. Roommate and I were “married” again after he left, when she saw him carry out the drive and the check in my hand for $1,250. All of the sudden we were best friends again as if nothing had ever happened. Funny right?

 

Moral of the story; I Found The Rules
THE RULES
1.The female always makes the rules.
2.The rules are always subject to change at any time without prior notice.
3.No male can possibly know all the rules.
4.If the female suspects the male knows all the rules she must immediately change all or some of the rules.
5.The female is never wrong.
6.If the female is wrong it is due to misunderstanding which was a direct result of something the male did.
7.If rule 6 applies, the male must apologize.
8.The female may change her mind at any time.
9.The male must never change his mind.
10.The female has every right to be angry or upset at any time.
11.The male must remain calm at all times, unless the female wants him to be angry or upset.
12.The female must under no circumstances let the male know whether or not she wants him to be angry or upset.
13.The male is expected to mind read at all times.
14.The male who doesn’t abide by the rules, can’t take the heat, lacks backbone and is a wimp.
15.Any attempts to document the rules could result in bodily harm.
16.If the female has PMS all the rules are null and void.
17.The female is ready when she is ready.
18.The male must be ready at all times.

 

Need I say I never bought that 84MB Hard Drive? Also, my roommate was never anything like the one for certain narcissistic girlfriend. And the other friend I am sure was looking for love in the wrong place. I like peace. I like conversation. I avoid chaos. Maybe that is some of the reasons why I put up with that narcissist. I think it may be harder for a guy to see a female who is narcissist. I believe men are more prone to violent behavior. And I can say
I was never hit or was violence even an issue. But violence is only one of the things this disorder exhibits. Emotional, mental and blame-game abuse are just as hurtful. Still I know my heart is not broken. It is only inaccessible to that person.

 

Some Pictures of old software.

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84mb-hdd
portabledrive
compare-floppies
old-software-in-original-package
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There Was A Time

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There Was A Time

There was time when I dreamed
that was last night
There was I time when I hoped
that was today
There was a time I was in love
that was two years ago
There was a time when I cried
that was last year
There was a time when I wished
that was last week
There was a time when I hurt
that was a month ago
There was a time when I worked
that was always
There was a time when I was lonely
that was recently
There was a time when I wanted
that was now
There was a time when I found you
that was when you find me

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Photos and poetry copyright © 1998 and beyond Wade Lancaster

Master Of Your Words

If you ever let your guard down evil will slip into your mouth and forever he will speak for you
Macro Photo of a Praying Mantis

When you Are Happy

When you are happy you forget about spiritual things, you forget about God.
Because happiness makes you forget about sorrow.
And when we are happy and satisfied, our guard is lowered.
Soon excess and indulgence overwelm the mind.
As the soul weakens sadness grows.
The demon of sorrow gains power, like a god.
But when you are sad and lonely and filled with sorrow, then you remember about spiritual things and you cry out to God.
Asking for forgiveness and pleading for help to heal your unhappiness.
It is then you are reminded of the frail desires of being human.
A life of seeking balance and self love.
Love for life, peace and tranquility.
Let not evil prevail.
Or soon the axe will be cast upon your neck.
Unless you cast your sword to the neck of the enemy.

iRamble About Blogs

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Macro Photo taken with Nokia 928, Carl Zeiss lens, edited with Lumia Camera

 

Spoken Or Written

Poetry about the weather

Poems about love

Words about the heavens

Thoughts of stars above

Bliss in emotion

Dreams of a kiss

Writing of what is missing

Wandering amiss

Story of a life

Hurt by the other

Tales in denial

Anger for a lover

Visions to behold

Captivating the audience

Lottery of gold

Photos in a camera

A gift in a pen

Absence of heartfelt

Advice never taken

What did you get

Blogs in a web

Fly on a wall

Spoken in my head

Taking me to bed

All the words we read

Everything we write

Is all there is to learn

In the bloggers own insight


A Bugs Advice; If you find yourself flying in a blue dream, don’t fly into the light. ~ Wade Lancaster (poems of a moth)

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I Am Because Of You

[this post was a draft about a year ago. it is a completely random mix of something past]

Thoughts from the vine in a web spun chaos of crafty imagination
I wish to thank all those people who came in my life to teach me that I needed to change. I wish to thank all those closed minded people who completely misunderstood my unique personality because you all unknowingly helped me to become more determined to maintain my uniqueness. I thank the people who misused me, the ones who gossiped about me, and the ones who back stabbed me because you all were my wake up call to a better version of me. I thank all those who broke my heart because they thought that I was a simple, stupid and vulnerable man. It was because of you all that I learned that there comes a time in life when you have to stop putting the reins of your heart into the hands of women who can intimidate you. I thank you all because you transformed me into a man who can stand tall and survive on his own terms without being victimized. Thank you all for giving me my wings. I feel like a butterfly out of a cocoon.


The laws of nature can never be broken. It is the human emotions, the human experience, that dictates what is broken.

Don’t look for perfections’ when you fall in love. Fall in love when you are ready to embrace flaws and imperfections. Fall in love when you are ready to be vulnerable. Fall in love when you are ready to sacrifice, when you are ready to share all your passions and dreams. Fall in love when you are ready to give your all. ~ Aarti Khurana

You may never find your way… But please do not deny me the chance to find mine.

Trust can never be obtained when one continues with lies.

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Said IQ was shit. Thought someone was blocked from seeing this tweet, or cheats.

 

The beast that lives inside of everyone must be shackled and chained. Let not hate be the beast that dwells outside.

Our goal is to swim in the sea of tranquility. Whenever we feel ourselves drowning in the sea of disparity… Perhaps the best way is to stand on each others shoulder’s not on each others toes.

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Even the best camouflage can’t hide from the all seeing eye of a lens 

Are you guilty of clicking on something without reading it? You know that terms of use or agreement you just scroll down to the bottom and click “I Accept” on websites or software? We are all guilty of the click, click, click syndrome, right? Did you know by law, international law that electronic agreement is binding and can be enforced? You may want to actually read every word of any electronic agreement before clicking I Accept. Here’s something I did once a long time ago just to see if anyone was really reading it.

I had a Microsoft user license for 1000 copies of the MS Games Action Pack. It had 15 games like Tetris, Cards, Tiles and Ski-free. In order to download and install the game pack a user had to agree to the MS terms of use and a per-user license agreement by the owner which was me. This download was a custom created software installation that would install the games in a folder for Windows 3.1, 95 and 98 automatically. All someone had to do was to download the MSI or EXE file, click it and agree to the terms of use which as we all know was a very long read. Once the user clicked on “I Agree” the software would be automatically installed and open up saying it was complete. There was nothing wrong with the file, no virus, or anything that harmed a PC or tracked the user. The person could play freely all the games with an unlimited use or time. What was different was in the user agreement, that by law was legal and binding. I did nothing wrong I only wanted to see if 1000 people would click and agree. Here is what I added in the middle of the software license agreement;

By clicking on I ACCEPT to this legally binding agreement according to the laws of California, Washington State, United States law where permitted and international law where applicable you agree to the following terms. If you do not agree do not install this software because by doing so you agree to these terms. If you do not agree you must delete all copies of this software from the computer hard disc drive, floppy disk or any other storage media. If you question this agreement you can send and e-mail to {suppressed} by clicking here and the subject line will be formatted for you. Type in your response and reason for not accepting this agreement in full or if you only accept some of the terms for use. You still must accept Microsoft Terms of Use by clicking here which is part of this download because MS is the owner of the software. A new terms of use file will open which supersedes this agreement. By continuing you agree to the following;  1.) You agree to give me use of your timeshare for one week next year for my sole and exclusive use.  2.) You agree to have your husband (if a married female) wash my car and cut my grass for a period of one week each year for 2 years. OR if a married male to have your wife live with me for two weeks every year (at your expense) for the next 2 years, not for the purpose of sex or favors but as a companion only. If wife has a problem with this agreement you agree to buy her $20,000 worth of jewelry over the next 5 years, to be available for her at all times to listen to anything she has to say and to give her back and shoulder rubs, foot massage or perform anything she desires at any time. If you as husband fail to do everything wife wants per this agreement you agree to pay me $100,000 of which I will personally buy wife $25,000 worth of jewelry and spend the remaining $75,000 on an attorney who will make your life a living hell until you do exactly as wife says.  3.)  You agree to lend my your car for 30 days out of the year and to maintain car in good mechanical shape and provide gasoline. 4.) You agree to, I can at anytime over the next 5 years decide what I want to add to this agreement without further notice to you. I only need to notify you of what I want and you must agree.

Of the 999 people who downloaded and installed this software only one person did not agree. This is the e-mail sent to the mailbox in the link;

Subject: I DO NOT AGREE

Dear Wade,

My name is Julia (removed) and I really want to use this software. I live in the state of California and I am a married female. I did some checking and you’re right this agreement is binding in California. I need these games because my husband is never home and this would help me to pass the time. He is cheating on me but California is a no fault divorce state. I want to amend your agreement, with your permission please. Can I send you my husband for 6 months instead of two weeks for the next five years. Also, if you would be so kind, can you offer one more download for my husband, please. He never reads anything. On our recent anniversary I gave him a card. In it I wrote I know you are cheating on me with a woman from Armenia. I found her letters in your briefcase. I also hired a PI and have pictures of you two together. I also learned you are taking language lessons learning to speak Armenian. We need to talk. Love, Julia. He opened the letter and pretended to read it, because all he said was how sweet. Thanks for the thoughtful card. He got me nothing for that special day. He says he wants to also download this game but the website says all copies have been used and no other are available for download. He says he wants to play Tetris. Which I find funny because he could just buy it. Once he has installed the game pack I will print a copy of the terms for him to see. I really want the jewelry and to have him pay more attention to my wants and needs. Its possible he may send me to you, so I just want you to be ready for one of us to arrive soon. I am a very attractive and fit woman. But my husband has told me I am only a trophy wife. He is very wealthy and will most likely just throw money at this agreement. You could profit by amending item 4 for a large sum of money. We have several time shares. (she listed them here but I removed) We have (list of cars, removed) let me know which one and I’ll have it shipped to you. I will put a credit card in the glove box for gasoline and repairs. My husband and I are very stubborn. If we both choose to invoke our rights under this agreement would you please not let us be with you at the same time? This would be very much appreciated because I could not stand the thought of being with his lying cheating ass in the same place. You seem like a thoughtful and sweet man. Mostly because you gave a wife so much leverage when you made this agreement. Or you are a woman? Either way I look forward to hearing from you soon. Please reply. Best Regards, Julia (removed) (address removed) (phone number removed) (email removed)

Did you just click on my post or did you really read it?

There Is No Poetry In Your Soul The Soul Is In Your Poetry

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An Ancient Time Machine

 

There Is No Poetry In Your Soul – The Soul Is In Your Poetry
true beauty rises from pain
love lives in every cell of my body
and my soul is filled
with passionate desires
and romantic dreams
which thirst for their speedy realization
i feel so terrible being lonely
because like a flower needs sun and water
i need care and love
my greatest dream
to find my soul mate
my true love
our destiny
and my heart tells me
that i am going to find her
and she is going to find me
then we shall fulfill
what was written in the book
the book of life
our life
a story everlasting
the only thing missing
we never had the chance
to tell our genuine feelings
for each other
that will be the chapter we write
together
because life is so short
and we do not have forever
when forever is a matter of time
in every version of the future
i must die
in every version of the past
i lived
in the present
i love
you

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Audio Candy

Audioslave – Yesterday To Tomorrow

Collective Soul – Bleed

There is no poetry in your soul. The soul is in your poetry.